Attached, you will find transcripts of all my reality machine recordings. It can help you discover the real society behind its fake veneer. I have grown cynical and gloomy through my tedious experimentation. But most of all, I have grown confused. I don’t understand why people are my friends, why they have the desire to spend time with me at all? It’s clearly not out of love, or even mere likeability. I don’t know what people are anymore, or how to explain their behavior.

4/15/00
I feel like a mini-God. When I listen to my messages, and then contemplate human nature, I feel I am excluded from it. I am an outside observer, hovering above all humans. I now believe I am one of the few living humans (if not the only one), who can see people as they truly are. I wear the only pair of glasses that shows truth. The reason people share time from five minutes to a lifetime is not friendship or love. In fact, friendship and love are mere social illusions. Every social exchange people have is a pure manifestation of human fear of loneliness. This is why some people have pets. Pets give people the illusion of not being alone without needing to invest precious time connecting, exposing themselves. With pets, people don’t have to become vulnerable to feel loved. All they have to do is clean their pet’s shit.

5/28/00
I have just returned home from a weekend of exile in my ex-girlfriends parent’s summerhouse in South Hampton. No one was scheduled to be at the house, since it is still off-season, and she agreed to give me