People
around me are kind and interesting, very international. I spend
my time talking and connecting, which is really all I like to do
anyway.
Well, maybe I’m exaggerating this a little now, and my
point is to be true in this writing, make it as scientific as
I can. Maybe I only thought my life was so perfect because I
know of the awful downturn everything took later that same night.
In any case, I beat him, we parted at the courts, and he took
a taxi home. I smoked the leftovers of a joint I had in my back
pocket, and took a nice hour-long walk all the way downtown to
my apartment. I watched night slowly land on the city, allowing
the yellow cabs to smear in front of my diluted vision and transform
into one uniform line of yellow light. I was thinking of how
messages are probably accumulating on my answering machine. When
I finally got home, I hit play to hear my messages. I should
tell you right now how much I love listening to my messages.
I am probably the only club promoter in the world that doesn’t
carry a cell phone. I can’t. If I did, no one would leave
me messages at home. God, how I love listening to my messages.
I hate voicemails that you have to dial in to retrieve your messages,
because then you can’t hear them played out loud. Everyday,
at least once a day, I blast the volume to the max on my machine,
and light a cigarette. I sit back on a chair as the voice from
the tiny speaker floods the room and mixes with my cigarette
smoke. The number 3 flashed in digital red on the display and
I pressed the play button, ears attuned, cigarette in mouth,
and lighter in hand. All my life I will never forget that first
message that played: it was Donna. She was calling from a noisy
restaurant, and the sound of people chatting and eating filled
my living room along with her voice.
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